Too much thinking, not enough time spent thinking, too much time to myself, nbot enough time to myself! Which is it, I don't know anymore all I can say is freak ell! I need to go on a vacation! A freakin vacation! SO we don't even have the right tools to do our job! ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!! And then they skill me with another skillset and I don't even know about it. WTF! Hello!!! Training associate, GOOD! Throwing him in ugly que, BAD! But of course considering who I work for I guess its to be expected. *BLEH*BLEH*BLEH* and *MEGA BLEH* I just need a good loooooooooooong vacation full of money galore. Yeah bay bee vacation!

Or better yet independantly wealthy. *drool* I need to be INDEPENDANTLY WEALTHY!!!!! I'll hire my friends to do lame jobs and pay em out tha ass. You know someone to chill with me almost 24/7 that should make things like real fun and stuff. SOmeone to scare me with their driving I think that'd be a fun job, hell I might keep it for myself and then charge it as a consulting fee. WHy? Cuz nobody else is really qualified to scare me with driving.

Oh well save the daydreams for later tex and phuckin get out of work! Time to party! RIGHT?!? Yeah bay bee! PARTY PARTY PARTY! Come party with me and investigate what I call my world!

So appearantly they thought I was some sort of super brain. Who knows why they put me in the new skillset but I stare and think DER! I mean like SUPER MEGA DER! Oh well time to step things up and try not to get my hands too dirty as I try to find a new vocation. Jeebus I miss school. SO come one come all help me celebrate life!

Now if I was a rutabega and I thought I should date a carrot, why would I get beaten by peas? You think on that one and I'll go have a good evening. Oh BTW go piss in the corner, nice round room huh?

So today is my gma's bday, it's also the day I celebrate the fact taht I can exercise my 1st amendment right and tell everybody to GO TO HELL! or something like that. You know whold grumpy tech who's working on the Fourth, *sigh* I wanna be one of those people with a real job who gets holidays off. Now that would rock. And have vacation time that actually rolls over, ooooooohhhhhh yeah! That's what I'm talkin about. My dad did that for his company and got his sabatical he had like two months worth of vacation saved up too. 3 month vacation! Jeebus! I need that shite! I would love to have that much time off, I would totally love my employer if I could get that much time away from em. Yeah new job hunt is underway, we are like talkin hard core and hopefully something will come of it.

You ever just ave one of those tripped out dreams thats just so unreal that its movie like? This wasn't my garden variety trippy deep thinker dream it was all hardcore action with guns, chicks and a rockin sound track. I kid you not my dream had a sound track, and I wasn't listening to the radio or nothin. Wierd, all I know is when robots similar to the terminator are invented I'm never gonna go to a school. Cripes it was wierd. ANd my friends and I were like our HS selves again it was twisted. I do remember watchin some old enemies gettin pulverirzed by these robots it ruled! Man I need more dreams like that. And maybe next time I'll stay awake instead of trying to experience my dream again. you know bring some of the magic back. Heh, Appearantly a little magic goes a long way cuz I've been pretty happy today and I get DOUBLE-TIME!!!!!!!!

HELLS YEAH!!!!!!!!!!!

Yeah today is a good day all I need is a bit o BBQ yeah bay bee! BBQ!!!!! Welp I gotta go and find out where the women reside cuz my new project is to cultivate a woman, er….meaningful relationship.

SHare?

I don't share

“How 'bout I cram a fax machine up your ass and you can call me tomorrow and ask me to stop?”

Cripes! I come into work to find out they are killing our Tech email team, yuck, but we can stay as CS email, whot? Me do CS and not let my bastardism show through? That's not gonna happen, if I don't quit first I'm gonna be fired. This I can guarentee. I mean really they think they can really have me be nice for eight hours a day? They had trouble with me being civil while doin tech support. And now I have to be nice with people being rude? Ummmm…..no.

I think they are trying to get me to quit, good plan. I'd say its workin wonders! Jeebus I need a new job, I'm lookin but I can't match the money here, which is twice as sad because I get paid jack for bein a tech. *sigh* Sucky sucky. Oh well such is life, I really wish I could figure out wtf those ducks across the street were plotting. They really are the spawn of satan, I know they are I just can't prove it. And they are smart little bastards, when I try to bring people around, they seem like normal ducks. ANd my claims are unsubstatiated and thrown out the window, cuz I'm just a crazy coot who thinks the ducks are EVIL!!!!!!!!!! EVIL!!!!!!!!!!!

DO YOU HEAR ME?!? EVIL!!!!!!!!!!

Regardless I'm still trying to find a rich woman to baby me any takers? I just need a life.

Yesterday was the first day where there was silence in my mind. No background noise or background thoughts running through my head. All there was, was me and my thinking for here and now. It was rather nice, I went out and watched the ducks float about at the duck pond across the street. I fell asleep to blissful silence, it rocked. Until I was woken up. It felt like someone totally kicked me in the head, but when I opened my eyes and rolled over there was one of tha ducks starin at me with my hair in its mouth. It was like “GOOD GAWD, It moved! They didn't say anything about it moving!!!!”.

This duck just stood there like a deer in yer headlights. I was screaming owwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww. But still he stood there straing at me, appearantly there's nothing in the duck handbook covering eating human hair and having them wake up. So finally I stand and he buggers out, when I turn and look around I see one of his lil theiving buddies makin off with my water bottle. What is this? It's like we have a legion of rabid ducks or something here. The only thing I do know, is if a duck doesn't want you to have yer water bottle its pretty hard to get it back.

My advice for everybody?
“BEWARE DUCKS”
“DO NOT BE LULLED BY THEIR COMPLACENCY”

Is that even a word? Hrm….well it is in my world. Oddly enough ducks are as psychotic in the real world as they are in my world. Now that is frightening. I think I will go to the zoo to stare at the polar bears. They rock and stuff. The last time I went I spent three hours just watching em swim around. Just chillin and and havin fun. You know one of those wow I should be in there playin with em. Then I watched em shred this cardboard box apart and thought twice about trying to have fun with em. I mean granted yer gonna lose an are or two when you play with animals but that just looked too violent. ANyways psycho ducks and silence, that wa my day. Now if only today could be as kewl