Some sort of useful person. Then I came to the realization I'm not, I'm just here for the plants sake. You konw convert Oxygen to CO2 , oh wait I am here to listen. Listening and watching two things I kick so much ass at it hurts. This isn't the normal I'm so down crap, no I don't do that anymore. Either I'm so depressed I can't leave bed or I'm just thinking. Kinda reflecting. More like just sitting here wondering if I should really make an effort to try and go for advancement in this company. I mean hell it'd look good on a resume, but at the same time it would mean more work for only a $0.50 raise. Not my idea of life in the fast lane.

Though that would help with a little bit more meat in my diet. Yeah more meat I'm not aggressive enough. Well I need to talk to my apts management to enquire about a possible move to a bigger apt in the complex. I might have a new roommate soon, depends on how I feel about gaining one and how bad it'll be to kill both our leases and such. We shall see, besides he has a computer I'm sure I could commandeer it a couple nights a week. Maybe?

Oh well lots of things to look at and examine and I've figured out why I'm here. I can't do anything else legally. *sigh* welp back to the grind.