Seems to be an almost constant state of mind for me lately. You can never really tell if you what you see or hear is there or if you are just making it up to amuse yourself. I've caught myself making random comments to statments that haven't been said, I've also found myself trying to explain a random comment or my stream of conciousness commentary as I work. Thats always amusing for my cubicle partner.

I hit a low yersterday as I sat here at my desk. Nobody could cheer me up or even remotely make me give a real honest smile. Then lunch came and things cheered up a bit no idea how or why but it was chill. Day progressed as can be expected while at work. Finally went home and hit the dragon with and assorted friends, so my day so much better. And I actually slept, so I'm purty good today.

Once again our server crashed so here I am bored outta my gourd, but hey you know supposed quick entry which just doesn't seem to want to die. Must needs go home, and now I am invited to the Pulse, ponder should I? Would I? Could I? I feel like a happy lethargic, *chuckle* if that makes any sense. You know like giddy yet lack energy to express it physically. Oh well

I have been having a wierd dream lately, well only twice but it has been the last two nights. I keep dreaming about this blonde lil girl who claims I'm her father. I never see her mother and we are almost never inside we always seem to be walking on a sort of bike path, it kind of reminds me of this hikers trail I walked in the UK near Wokingham. But we always walk along talking about mundane things like school or what she thinks about life. I always wake up when we reach home. The first night she asked if I was mad at her mom, my wife? Last night she asked what if I heard voices. This time I remained in the dream to discuss how she felt about the supposed voices she heard, described it almost like the whispers I have in dreams. You can hear them in the background, but when you try and focus on them they grow faint or stop altogether. I dunno, this was just a wierd dream and figured I should share with everybody, wierd huh?

Ah well time to pretend I like work. As I listen to Daft Punk it rminds me of the time I held people at work hostage with it for 8 hours straight. *muha* I am EEEEEEEEEEEEVVVIIIIIIIILLLLLL!!!!!!!!!!