I just don't know what to say….

Everything is a blur, a fragment of coherant thought. I think and it fractures, I try and concentrate on the fractures and they become sounds. Garbled sentences form garbled statements which I utter, and realize that I should have kept these things to myself. I walkaround in a daze, thinking about how much sleep I would enjoy, I was sick yesterday and now I can't sleep. I need to just sleep and find a bit of solitude. Something to stop the fracture.

Something to just stop it! Something, something, something…..something just make it stop. I can't concentrate, I am deleriously happy and satisfied, yet nothing makes sense, nothing I say makes sense. I can't make any sense. I just sit here and stare at my screen, praying that some email will trickle into my inbox so I can stay off the phones. Think is not my strong point, neither is coherancy. I can't speel I can't think I can't concentrate.

The downward spiral has started, just one step closer to the brink. Everything is hazy or just doesn't make immediate sense. Can I make it to the Dragon? Can I go on today like this? Will I survive and be able to pull this day off? I just need it need it.

When you have insomnia, you're never really awake, and you're never really asleep….

How true, must get sleep, help me heeeeelp me……