So we go yelled at in our meeting today, hehehe, apparently some of us *cou-me included-gh* Ah well I'm workin onf gettin my metrics up and being a good boy. It is a lame and sucky job, but its the only one I got for now. Sooooo, I'm like bored and waiting for calls to come in and it rules! I'm sittin ghere bored out of my mind, so I start reading the paper and my book, SCHNIKES! this rocks….I like waiting to get a ding on my phone.

I'm frustrated and HORNY! Bad mix with bordem

Today I woke up, and I was in a funk, I know I know yer probably thinking uh oh here he goes again. But I have good reason this time. Today is the day I lost my soul years ago…Or mayhap I should say my soul mate, at least it felt as if that was how it was then. But, now she's gone, sorry to sound like a cliche, but she was a huge part of me and I lost something the day I learned about her death. I was unhinged, and not quite balanced, I don't think I've ever completely recovered or realized what it was that broke. I kinda of exist as I always have, and just go from day to day, but each year this day is the day I normally reserve for being down, and reflection. This year is diff however, something has changed, I still feel the loss and I'm still compemplative and deep in reflection, but its not ending in the normal depression or feelings of loss. I could pin it on my gf and how complete she makes me feel or how she seems to be a stimulus rather than a bore, as most of my previous gfs have been.

It seems to be so much deeper though, something profound, but not visible. What ever it is, I like it and I wonder what truth I've realized or what fact I am just ignoring or forgetting to have this pseudo “bliss”. It's good and nice, I think I'll keep this for a while.

On a side note, travel safe

Knowledge is fixed in time, whereas, knowing is continual. Knowledge comes from a source, from an accumulation, from a conclusion, while knowing is a movement.

Tao of Jeet Kune Do

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Of course that seems to be a natural state of mind for me. Kinda fun most of the time, but I also wonder how those who think coherantly see the world. I wanna see the rowld through someone else's eyes, I can't seem to be down for more than a day or two, this cheerfulness always seems to kick its way back into my system. the world is always an adventure, I can almost always make things mega fun.

I can see the world through eyes unclouded by hate? Hehehehe silly movie quotes, anywho I just wonder what the other side is like, I mean I see it in my spots of depression, but I just can't imagine being in that spot for a while or for any longer than I normally am. I dunno I think I just want everybody to be as happy as I am right now. Come lets all find psychotropic narcotics and be happy with each other. ANywho outta work and happy, latah all.

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