Have you ever just kind of lost it, not necessarily bad lost it, but something more laong the lines of just so inconcevably happy and sickenly pleasant that nobody can really stand you? Well I can stand me at least, I am finally back to where I was while was years ago when I was permanantly heffed up. I almost always seemed to have a smile or something pleasant to say or do. I always had something that seemed to entertain people, it stuck for the most part while I was a waiter, because I could always joke whil in back or walk away form the table. But since I started working here I lost that, and that part of me that seemed like it was always happy and just liked life in general died, or at least hit hybernation mode. But its coming back, or at least it feels like it.

I wake up now and I actually relish the idea of going out and experienceing life again. I can't wait tosee and hear what my mind has in story and may try and get me to see. Thoughts flowing through my mind, like liquid again, no longer sluggish orr depressing. Color is every where once again, and all I can think is:

When will it end

But on to happier things, I am off and ready to cause havoc.