Ok, right about now I feel like I'm in a gang, a gigantic gang with thousands of people I could realy careless for. Luckly, there was no ranking in, otherwise it would really irk me right now. WHy do I feel like I'm in a gang right now do you ask? A couple words can answer that.

America Strikes Back

Ok I'm pretty sure I don't have all the details and not really making my normally educated choice. But right now I feel as if America has just retaliated with a drive by. I mean what happened was a tragedy, but I think this whole retaliation right now is on par with the gang ideaology. We have dead, well now we gonna give you dead! Drive-by ensues, honestly I'm sure we can think of a better way to spend money, rather than fire a million dollar tomahawk cruise missile at some dirt in Afghanistan, but hey we might hit something or someone considered responsible right?
Same theroy with a drive by, just shoot and we're bound to hit something. Gawd, sometimes I just hate thinking as much as I do. I wish I hadn't opened the paper this morning and read about the strikes against the Taliban.

If anything we are creating a new generation of “terrorists”. Imagine a child who has both their parents killed by said Tomahawk missile, don't you think they are apt to think of the US as an evil country and take up the cause of his terrorist brothers? What of the minority Christians in Afghanistan? Will they suffer at the hands of the Taliban because of our, “retaliation”? If they do will we feel remorse or any sort of feeling for those in danger or who suffer as we have? Who are suffereing because of something out of their control? Do we even think anymore? I heard a funny quote today….

What do you think it would take to become a Canadian citizen?

I dunno, I just want some sort of affirmation that other people feel the way I do or at least see my side or the way I'm thinking about and regarding this situation.

No I'm not UNamerican, I am very American I do have pride for my country, but not if it comes to the pushy tourists walking around foriegn countries acting like total cunts. I”m not going to be proud of attacking something blindly because we are “pretty, sure, but not really quite as sure as we should be” that the orchestrator of our loss somewhere out there. Wild pot shots, trying to make them feel as we do. This quote sickened me as I read it today.

“They wanted to play the game, and now the score is tied,” Tom Scriven said, “It's good. We should do it again.”

So we should waste more money shooting our really nifty missles at holes in the ground? At a target we aen't even sure is there? Dayam if you wanna be like that, why don't we just nuke the dayam place and get em all, he's bound to be one of em, right? *sigh* I digress now, I just hope major loss of life is not on either side. Oh well, flame away peeps I need a some sort of stimulation right now.

Vmyths.com

I ONCE LECTURED about viruses to a small group of businessmen in 1991. A network administrator stood up at one point and proclaimed his company (a law firm) would literally close its doors for good “if a destructive virus of any type gets on our system.” They would sell the office equipment; the secretaries would find new jobs; the lawyers would take their filing cabinets to other firms. The company would fold if even one destructive virus infiltrated their network.

Shocked by his statement (and trying to regain control of the lecture), I asked what would happen if fire swept through the firm's building. No sweat: they kept backups off-site and had purchased contingency contracts for just such emergencies. I responded, “Well, there you go. If a virus ever gets on your computers, burn your building to the ground and your problem is solved!”

The audience laughed — but I fumed. I would fire this man on the spot if he worked for my company! I don't want anyone on my payroll who would instantly put everyone out of work due to his own pompous ignorance.

Tee Hee, thats pretty funny, this is on this page

http://vmyths.com/fas/fas2.cfm

Remember the virus scare back in May, about the SULFNBK.EXE file which just happened to be the same name as a file on the windows system? Well I was reading up on it, mainly cuz I had a late bloomer who decided to get around to deleting the windows file and wrote me about it, but here is one sites translation of that particular email concerning the virus HOAX.

The correct translation
If we translate the sulfnbk.exe chain letter for the real world, it would read as follows:

I went to the place where I work, and I shouted, and guess what? I got a response. Creepy! I reloaded twice just to be sure. Trust me, you need to follow these instructions.

1) Go to the place where you work.

2) Shout out, 'can anyone hear me?'

3) If you get a response, shoot to kill — it's a homicidal maniac!

4) Well, actually, he's not a maniac yet. That's why the police can't help you. But he'll turn into a homicidal maniac on June 1. Shoot him! Do it right now! Better safe than sorry!

5) Good news: you killed the homicidal maniac. Bad news: everyone you spoke to in the last few months now has a homicidal maniac at work. Warn all of your friends!

BWAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
That's friggin great, and for those of you that need a bit more back ground here's the site I found it.

http://vmyths.com/hoax.cfm?id=257&page=3

Hehe this was in the paper:

Define “Exceptionally Unlucky”:

Quitting drinking and smoeking- Then getting run over by a cigarette truck on the way to your AA meeting

How fun is that? So yeah I'm like perma distracted now, I will probably be so for the rest of my life. I don't have to actively think about things, they just come and go as they always have. More flowing and, well more distracted, but its how I've gone through life before, and its good to be back where I once was. I need to go home and clean that biznatch, its a losing battle as it is though, you know? I need to go, I need to stay, what I really need a refreshing alcoholic beverage. Mmmmmm as they say. Or I say, or you can say, but I wouldn't readily agree with you because well they say it so I intially don't want to go with it because I don't like “they” makes things a bit tougher ya know? Ack! I'm a ya know bitch right now! QUIT IT!!!! *smacking self*

Yeah I think I need to lay off the Scope, and get a real drink, whatta ya think. Ready to go home now, how bout you Bill? Hey did you know is the devil? Lil known useless trivia fact for for that NPH,

*SMIRK*

So yeah I'm stuck, you know what I mean..in that whole I'm gonna make my life better but I can't, why? Well I'm lazy, but I can change that, but I don't want too. Wait wait wait wait….it all stems from feelings of inadequecy right? Oh yes thats right, thats because I was molested as a child and now I don't know how to handle it, or it could be the fact that I haven't dealt with my friends death a long time ago. Nonononono, Iknow what it is, I need FOOD!!!!

Hungry

Hungry

Hungry

BBQ this SUN!!!

Let the booze and seared mammal flesh flow!!!!

I haven't done that in about two weeks, and in those two weeks I haven't been myself, sure I've been happy and such but I've been grumpy and prone to bouts of panic, this has been exacerbated by my recent involvement with my gf. At first I didn't understand why or how, but now it's becoming a bit clearer.

Last night I dreamt

I haven't dreamt in two weeks… I did last night, it was a pretty trippy dream I would think, but kind of stale when compared to my normal sleep time fare.

Without REM sleep, can one go insane?

I feel as if it might be the case, I was losing a grip on my sanity. Perhaps the only thing grounding me and not allowing me to escape (flee in terror) was my gf. I've had this happen before , and I disappeared for 3 days, I can't stand sleep without dreaming. I become listless, generally aggitated, needing some sort of release from it. I need to get away, get out, or just find something more fulfilling in life, or so it would seem.

I am happy, I just dont' dream

I need to dream, and now that I have I feel invigorated, refreshed. I'm ready to move on and get out of this hopeless pit of despair.

I'm sorry for those I might have disappointed last night

I felt exhausted and crashed out in my living room, I couldn't handle it. But I'm better finally, I dreamt…..

It was an odd dream but fun

I was hanging out with my friend Julia and we just kind of wandered all over the city together, when I started tlaking about needing a roomamte for a house. We went to her house(?)…and met my brother there, who then proceeded to get locked in the bathroom and I watched Julia's roommate get vaporized by some hidden assailant. But another friend of hers came in started talking about a sketchy looking guy wandering around the house. So went to investigate, alright I said house(?) because this is where it gets wierd. The front door had a pretty large ornate peephole and a wavy glasswindow on it. I notice a lot of these doors on the numerous rooms throught the house, as well as just anywhere in the hall way, freaky people and sketchy doods were running rampade in the 45+ room house. I made it back to the living room when some guy started trying to kick me and my lil bros ass, you know typical martial artist bad guy type. I woke up as me and my brother were running him down and actually trapped him in an alley and started to fight him again. Wierd….

But

I dreamt

I hope I dream more….

My job is a life sucking pool of despair, I can't help but feel violated as I enter the doors each morning. I feel the full rapture of realization as I leave that friggin lifeless building every day. Each day I die, and I am reborn again as I attempt to pretend I enjoy my job, or that I like people. I have learned hate, I have learned to despise those who seem unwilling to learn for themselves or attempt some semblence to help themselves. I can't help but feel, that if I was to die, nobody would notice or care. And if they did its because I added humor to their otherwise mundane and pointless existance. GAWD I HATE MY JOB!

But on the bright side I'm getting off soon and I might actually get some sleep. YaY sleep!!! I can't wait, I think I'm just trying too hard lately, today, no energy, no will to animate my limbs for anything other than hitting the mute button so I can whine about how dumb my customer is. If not I'm waiting for my computer to come up and get ansey as the customer gets irritable, which in turn irritates me. Yeah I need sleep, my eyes are bleary, I can't hold my head up, help me, help me!!!!!

Oh yeah I'm almost off!!!!!
YAY!!!!!!!!!!

So today I've been wired beyond belief, you can just think, uhhhhhh DUH! Sure why not? AMking sense is not my forte right now, I just can't seem to even realize that I'm not breathing. Everything else is just way to interesting. I have been accused of gettin heffed up before work, but I flatly deny those accusations. I don't have enough money. Hehe. Though I'm pretty sure if I had money I would be buying a couch and a bed, appearantly its hard to sleep on the floor for “SOME PEOPLE”.

Yeah but I'm like ready to go home, but I came in an hour late so I suppose I should stay an hour later, you know since I have email and all. WHEEEEEEEEEEEEEE, I'm an email freak, give it to me and I will love you. I think someone should come over, but I'm sure she would disagree, whats this physics crap anyway? Justr get it done already!
*pthb*

I need to go home and find some semblence of sanity. Sanity? Hehehehehehe, that won't happen at home, let me tell ya. Sanity and home just go together like uhhh, what ever happens to be opposites. Let me go home home home, hey did I tell you I have a gf? She kicks ass.

Ohhhhhhhh, my head

If I could fly I would, but I can't so I don't

My response to my lil brother as he asked me why my thoery on dark matter made so much sense

Can we say druuuuuuuuuunnk?