I just don't know anymore…I feel lost, floating in a sea of indecision and hatred. I mean I am happy and can stay happy, but always in the back ground or surrounding me is this virtual sea of negativity. I am able to ignore it most of the time, however, lately I've had people pissin me off. I've really begun to detest the people who call the tech support line. I can't seem to do anything right, I mean I keep screwin up, I get my write up and I just blah screw me self up tha goat ass. No matter how hard I try I just can't seem to make the things happen that I want, however, when I take the lazy way I seem to find and get what I want pretty easily. I really regret goin legit now. I am poor, I am uneducated, and most of all I am bitter. The only good thing I have is my fam.

But then there is the me which seems to be on the surface more and more, the happy to be around, the glad to be flippin alive. I dunno, Im just confused lost and ready to go home. One of these days I'll make sense, one of these days I'll have a happy post. ;P