Why is it that everything I write or type seems to sound so good in my head?!? I mean it sounds good and looks good the first time around, but when I read it sober I realize how damaging and potentially lame it is. It sounded as if things happened that didn't, it sounds as if I might have feelings that could damage a relationship I am in right now. All I can say is as I read it I felt kinda disturbed as you did, I couldn't even try and fix it so now it is deleted. Why?!? I prefer not to remember such lame mistakes, except for future reference so I can avoid this mistake again. Im glad that you have that attitude of water under the bridge, and I thank you for your unconditional love. I really do love you bay bee. Anyways I just needed to write this real quick inbetween my job search and such.

As for the new year, its here and its only gonna get better right?!? I just need steady money. ANyways only five more months and such. We shall reflect on what I am thinking later, for now I am happy.