I feel so terribly alone, I always have and probably always will. Why is that?!? Am I doomed to feel utterly alone no matter how loving an atmosphere I may be in?!? I just don't know anymore, I feel as if I might hold this hollow heart for the rest of my life. For a while now I've felt as if I might be able to kick it and lose that particular feeling. Still, the world seems to cry out to me telling me that I must be alone, no matter how much love I might find from someone. I love yet I still feel as if I am utterly alone, I don't know maybe I am too self involved and can't seem to find that balance needed to kep things happy in the world. Or am I supposed to fuck this relationship up as I seem to fuck em all up. Tonight has givin me plenty of time to think about it and wonder what it is that keeps me going in this world. I often wonder how I keep goin and why I keep goin, I don't know maybe I am destined to stay alone in the world. Are you?!?