Only seems to make sense for short periods of time. Then the inevitable curve ball is thrown and I have no idea what is going on again. Try as one might to keep things going well it seems that one misplaced word or action seems to crush the balance. I just don't know what to do sometimes I feel lost right now, everything I do or say seems to destroy things which are going well. I can't think anymore, things that made sense now don't, and the happy world I once knew is now descending back into that gloomy gray it has been for so long.

Before everybody thinks this is all about my relationship with , its only a part of why things seem to be going this way, most of the time its my only highlight. I just need something…”new”?…

Been a while since I've written this but I finaly felt the urge to post it. Its a psuedo song that I wrote one night, if I could remember the circumstances I would be happy to share, sadly its jus been one of those things you have hanging out forever.

Why do you keep needling me?
Keep pushing on the pin
I just want out of this pain

You keep pushing harder and harder
Just quit it, just quit it
You keep trying to tear me down
Just did it, just did it

I could't imagine my life without you
Keep pushing the pin
Now I want you out of my brain

Stop pushing harder ahd harder
Just quit it, just quit it
You can't keep tearing me down
Wish you did it, wish you did it

Life has moved on without you
Try and push now
I just left you out in the rain

Can't push any harder
Just quit it, just quit it
Your hold on me is over
You couldn't do it, you couldn't do it

Just get out of my life
JUST STOP THE PAIN!