Alright so my last post sounded assish and lame, yes I will leave it up because I believe that what ever you say is what you want to say and not just a “joke” as so many people try and play it off. is never the most forth coming about what is angering her and that helps with me with my irkedness, but we finally talked and I just had to post now as I posted the update to my website. Alright so we talked and this is what I got out of her for her anger:

A) I always stay at work late (alright since I can't really remember a time I haven't Im inclinded to agree)
B) It makes her feel lower down on the ladder when I stay at work and drink (I see that point as well I mean id she did the same Im sure Id have feelings of not lovedess)
C) When you say yer gonna do somethin…DO IT! (Yeah I seem to have a big prob with that wne it comes to just leaving work and coming straight home, again Im sorry bay bee)

This was my lame asss defense, it may suck but its my defense:

A) People at work are the only real people that I really interact with IRL I mean hell I really only have on friend that I would hang out with on a normal basis.
B) I tend to get sucked into “interesting” convos easily, this points more towards the first oint but its a fact if you interest me I will talk and tend to lose time, it's how got to know each other so much way back when.
C) These are my only “friends” in my life besides my bay bee and her friends.
D) I normally eat something when I finish work and beer goes along nicely with a burger or somethin, people just keep buying me more beer and liquor.
E) I never realized I was this bad or it effected you this badly

Like I said lame answers and responses but they are what I thought of and why I seem to gravitate towards stayin after work to drink and eat. So in typical Rob fashion I came up with possible fixes, they are as follows:

A) I should have everybody fired from my job and get a new boring inane crew to work with ( This is a hugely humorous idea to me I put it first cuz it brought the biggest smile to my face, while not only being absurd, it would be kewl because it would give me this enormous sense of power, though it would suck to fire all my budds….so I spose its not really a good answer, just a good chuckle)
B) Drink a beer and a cranberry juice and thats it with my meal (This is a good one because with less beer the less likely I am to stay rooted in one place, AKA my work)
C) Kiss a lotta ass with mah bay bee (Good idea random roses, toys and whot not I think that shoud suffice)
D) Just come home when I say I will (Probably the best of all my fixes)
E) Just communicate more (Yeah yer right a simple call home would help lesson the tension a lot, sorry bout that I don't think a lot apparantly)

Sooooooooooooooooooo, that is that and I think I'll work on all those fixes, even my absurd lame ass fire all my friends fix….hey it could happen!

I feel guilty for having a good time after a good night at work?!? Why is it that I feel guilty that its my birthday and Im planning on calling all my “friends” to remind them?!? Maybe its because I feel alone right now, maybe its because I've had the first interesting convo since this eveing. I dunno. Apparantly I stay after work a WHOLE LOT! and Im sorry I do and I apologize but sometimes I just need to have a quick beer and that seems to take time as I find interesting people and such. I felt some hostility last week that didn't need to be so, why not visit ones family while I am working who says you have to stay home?!? *sigh* tonight was bad I'll admit I almost closed tha bar but thats because I had such a great convo goin with my manager. Oh well I feel guilty and thats all I know, help me get rid of this guilt.