I have been having some odd dreams lately, a couple nights ago I was sleping in my chair in the living room and dreaming apparantly. I was just cruising around my conciousness viewing faces of people form my past, I was able to inquire about my feelings towards that person and see how much I actually cared for them. I noticed a decided void from 15-19 of when people really didn't mean that much to me, I was almost inhuman with my inability to care. I was also astounded b the accuracy of which my mind could pull up events of good times and bad times with each person. Finally somthing told me it was tim to wake up, so I did but when I awoke I couldn't move as hard as I tried I couldn't lift my hands or my head they just stayed in the positions that they were in while I slept. I couldn't lift my head I panicked and started to scream, my lips wouldn't even move, I was suprised my vocal cords still worked. All I could get out was a muffled moan as I tried to move my hands, finally they started to move, but it turned out to be all in my head, because as I blinked I found them back in their original places. I couldn't stand it I started to try and move them with all my might, when my eyes snapped open and my body nearly lept out of my chair. Yeah dreaming of waking up, Im not likin that I've never had a dream that far out of my control before, its starting to scare me how I can't control my dreams lately. Is this whot other people go through all the time?!? Yeah I have to admit it makes me sound a bit controlling but dreams have alwayss been a kind of escape because I could control them. Oh well to be I spose.