So apparantly they were right when they said that physical labor will help you forget your woes. I mean granted it wasn't hard physical labor, but sadly it showed us just how un prepared we are for the move. I used every single box we had and we barely packed all our books and closet clothes and linens, YIPE! Me thinks we shoulda started this daunting task much sooner.

So my life has gotten a little hectic and I think the stress is beggining to take its toll on sucks, but now that I back in school and have been demoted back down to grunt, peon, waiter I think its time for a bit of a pity ass kicking. Let's sart a little while back shall we?

I got into all the classes I wanted though it meant I had to go to school 6 times a week. Not bad and I figured a couple days of school wouldn't kill me too much if I had to work full time. Besides I had my raise to help cover the slack or so I thought. I started school and I destest school I've never liked it and I really can't stand being in class listening to lectures when there are so many other ways to learn that are enjoyable. So school sucks. I have to share a car, this would not be bbad except for the fact that I thought of an interesting new wrinnkle today. After I drop H off and park in South Lot, how the hell is she supposed to drive it since my spare key is at the title loan places and how is she supposed to find it amongst all the other cars. I have a hard enough remembering where it is and I park the mofo. So another quandry in my school revival. I pick her up on my days off, nothing too hard there, but it doesn't leave me much time to get much else done. I know I should be doing things when we get home after that, but I feel so drained spending that much time in the car running errands or just trying to get things together for school. I need to get moving and get packing so we can starty moving. I know this but somehow it feels as if Im the one who has to motivate. I mean here I am working all the time and trying to make sure bills are paid and whot not, but it feels as if Im supposed to to take care of everything else when I get home. Am I going insane? Am I just thinking too much or whining too much? I think thats why I rebelled on Fri, as shitty and fucked up as it was, I seriously hadn't meant to be out so long and whot not, I think subconciously Imy brain may have thought I just needed time to me and my friends. Thats one thing Ive been tending to miss lately, me time. Just time where I can blast my music of movies and just enjoy it to enjoy it. Being responsible sucks, but its kewl at the same time because you can say hey look I did it and Im responsible. ARGH! I hate my brain when it does this. Anywho on to the work issue.

So I have started and school and that leaves me with an availability of seven nights and one day. Hey I gave em all I could. However the powers that be decided that one day wasn't enough. I need at least two to keep my farkin raise and promotion. WTF?!? I took this position under the impression that I was there to train when I could and whot not and run the place when people go on vacation. I spose I was mistaken. So I guess they won't miss me when I take time off to see my lil one pop out. I mean seriously Im short one measly day and they take away my promotion? How is this retaining employees?!? Yeah Bad Monkey no cookie…HOW DARE YOU GO OUT AND TRY TO BETTER YOURSELF! Yeah I wanna be a professional waiter, Im sure you can all tell with my sunny disposition and how I treat my customers. So now I don't have that raise and they only scheduled me once this week. Ummmmmmm I said school not death! UGH! So Im grumpy about that.

I haven't been able to sleep well lately and Im just generally not a happy camper. Im hope to hell H doesn't feel the same, but if she does I hope she is able to talk about it with me as always. I think I just needed to vent because I really don't talk to anybody outside of H lately. Yeah I feel a lil better now hope I didn't clog up to many friends pages with this.