Im tired, I feel exhausted, and I feel like I was blamed for not being able to sleep last night. I really wish I had more energy and was able to clean up and do stuff when I get home from work. But this past week has been hellish with school and work non-stop. I am counting the hours til tomorrow after my math class when I can finally take a nap or just stare at the sky as I veg on the grass. I wish I had money, I wish I had an education. I am pretty well versed and quite intelligent, or so I thought. Now Im just dense and getting more so everyday. Me thinks that the world isn't really stupid, maybe I am an elitest like my fiancee said before. I dunno, I think Im just losing faith in my ablity to provide for my family and give my kidd a good life. Im feelin drained and hopeless, will I actually eb able to do it?