- Lately I've been feeling old and exhausted. I think I've finally hit that wall hit almost a month ago. Things a moving along at the casa, but now Im draggin ass and Im not liking it. I don't play with my daughter as much as I used too and well Im just too tired to do anything around the house half the time. My birthday passed with a bit of a bang but not too much luckly. I think the worst part of all this is the fact that I don't get to be out with mah gurlie as much as I like. The only alone time we get now is collapsing into each other's arms on the couch before she goes to bed. This cannot bode well for us.
- I do have to say it was great to get out of the house with her last week for a bit of pool and drinks. Many thanks to our friends who provided transpo and babysitting.
- So Im thinkng about my whole debt situation and wondering how I let it get this bad. I mean I can work towards paying things off and I hope to real soon but right now with the wedding and everything it just seems like I never have any money anymore. I would really like to get a new car but it appears as if this will not be happening in the near future because of my credit and the downward spiral it is on.
- Procrastination is bad.
- Ri smiling at me after a hard day's work is nor.
- I've been having wierd dreams lately. A lot of them revolve around raising my daughters by mysel without H around. It frightens me and makes me cringe. This whole thought of her not being around for the rest of my life. Though I think I am stuck with her my whole life because she made the demand of going before me so she doesn't have to face life without me. how is that for sweet in a wierd necrophiliac-ish way?
- The other day I sat staring at the clouds while riding the bus, I got lost in the clouds and the music and subsequently missed my stop. I exited the bus one stop later and have to hotfoot it to work. I ran al the way there so I would be late. I clocked in 5 mins late and then stood around for 1 and a half hours until I got my first table. I should have just stayed on the bus and rode the whole route until it stopped in front of my work again.
- Sleeping through alarms is bad.
- Making Heather laugh and Ri giggle is not.
- Did you know that the ancient Maya charted Venus' path through heavens? They used it as a time piece for their wars. Certain phases and positions denoted a need to attack ones neighbor. I should do that sometime, just randomly declare war on a neighbor and after I wipe them out just say I was following the Maya culture.
-Have you ever really payed attention to the Chaco Canyon lectures if you've ever been there? Or even seen the PBS special on it? Gads, sheer magnitude of their effort and engenuity is just awe iinspiring.
- I've thought about becoming one of those people who digs through Mayan and Aztec ruins and tries to decipher their language and figure them out. Bu then I realized I would have to go to school for this, learn a new language and retake a few math classes. Maybe I should just try for a degree in astrophysics.
- No matter how many things intrigue me or interest me I just can't find “the one” that I will enjoy for the rest of my life. I liked music and still do, but college kind of beat that love out of me. I like physics and other mathematical shite, but lack the patience to finish school for it. You got me man all I know is I need something to make my life fulfilling, cuz waitin tables isn't cuttin it anymore.
- It entertains me, how much I don't want to be at work while I am there and on the clock, but when Im off it doesn't seem like a bad job. I guess that's why I've been there for a 1+ now.
- I had another dream about people trying to rob my bank branch I frequent and when I accidently fell on one he shot me in the foot. I woke up with a really bad foot spaz/cramp. Spooooooooooky
- It's an update, It's almost interesting. It's my boring life! Lately I've wanted to update my lj with profound words and lots of wittiness but as soon as I get online I burn all my energy just clicking through my normal sites. So “NO UPDATE FOR YOU!” Im getting better honest! More interesting soon too. Think of this as an upgrade from yer basic Rob to the full movie package Rob. Lots more info and updates, still nothing on. ;P