I had an odd dream about how things would have turned out had I actually married my ex fiance. Well it wasn't very pretty, especially since my mind realized that a lot of my growth and change happened well after she and I broke up. Things were bleak and our child was not the most well reare, stable, or friendly child in the world. It was kind of dark and hopeless, it made my waking life seem that much more rosy. I've been stressing about money and freaking out about lil things lately which has been creating a tense atmosphere. I think the thing that is making me most ill at ease is the fact that I don't know what I want to do to support my family. I stick to waiting tables because the potewntial for making money is very very good, yet I know I don't want to do that forever. I have a feeling I also wouldn't be able to function in a corperate environment. Sexual harassment is the norm at my resturant, if you are offend3ed you let people know. None of this tattling to the teacher behind that person back. You stand up for yourself and let the perpetrator know what is wrong. I like that a lot better than anythingn else. Although even if I find a job for $8-$9 an hour I'll probably make as much if not more than waiting tables, just because I all the money would make it to my checking account rather than a bar or a spur of the moment purchase.

On to the rosiness that is my life. Upon waking I walked towards my daughter's room and heard her happy noises, I peeked in and she woke up fairly happy. I love it whan that happens, as we sat on the couch and watched Seasame Street for a few minutes I realized how lucky I am to have the patient wife I have and the pretty much well behaved child I do. The only down side is my kid is way too intelligent for her own good. While it is good to have a smart child, this also causes ulcers in the parental figures. I hope she didn't get my slacker gene and not really care about school. Hopefully her mom's nerd gene will take more of that.

Monday's have become pretty fun lately, my girls come in when Im getting off work and we chill for a couple hours and eat dinner while playing NTN trivia. All my co-workers ohh and ahh over my spawnling and the parents get a few mins of respite. Tis good and fun. Well enough rambling and wierd comments, Im off to find a good steak or two and maybe figure out how to get my hands on the new Trickster Reprocesed from Kidney Thieves. Mmmmm, KT gotta love it.