Life is one big hairy stress ball right now and Im just trying to stay afloat. im trying to be a good dad, but I often wonder if I really am.
Im short tempered lately
I feel off from the rest of the world.
I look at my daughter and think there is so much more i could be offering to her.
Money stops it all. (The fact that we have none)
Lately I've been feeling depressed and alone.
I feel like Im losing my sanity one piece at a time.(Slowly ever so slowly)
Is this how insanity starts? (Im not joking, I feel this off)
I've had a few scrapes with bad trips and just not kewl vibes, and don't want any of that noise back.
I dreamt last night (Dreaming of bright eyes and stars up high)
It was the same as always.
I stare into the distance. (Waiting, wondering, hungrily)
Wishing something would happen.
Sword in hand I leap from a cliff. (Why not? They seem kewl)
Plunging into water and watching as the sky above faded.
I stared at a face, her eyes opened. (I jumped out of bed)

Im sure something is becoming more and more apparent, Im just a bit of kilter. Probably part of my charm, but it's a bitch too.
Another pity party over here. I got along with my daughter today. I think I'll work on that and I think I'll work on the wonky hormones I got goin.
I don't think I was built with a lot of compassion or patience. Both of which I need with a child. Working on it and hoping to get better. Out.