Archive for March, 2004
Alone
So my wife has left, she is gone for a week and a day.
I thought I’d be strong, not a nerd.
However, my brain wants to conspire against me.
When I have a quiet moment I can literally hear tha abacus clicking away and calculating the precise minute/second/nanosecond she should be back.
I am a huge nerd.
A change….and now for something completely different
I was thinking last night about my demeanor lately.
I’ve been bitter and angry, and not supportive of all the shopping lately.
I realized it was because i was bitter about all the money we spent on the trip.
We could have definitely had our car back up and running without it.
I never wanted to talk to my wife about it because Im sure she would have felt guilty and not excited about the trip.
I didn’t want that, I want her to have fun. Read more
Nothingness and cheese…
i feel empty again,
But I feel happy too.
Strange how they works, hey?!?
My family makes me happy and I am happy around them.
This insidious sadness and deep despair seems to be only a grumpy moment away.
My dreams are getting dark and morbid now.
Disjunct images and random voices.
Worse yet is the occasional scream. Read more