Im seething, just a huge cauldron of anger, or even just a bag o angst. I don't know where it comes from, maybe it's the whole not having an enjoyable job anymore. Or perhaps it's the fact that I don't have that “good job” to support my family with. I couldn't find a babysitter today so no job hunting for Robbo, but I plan to get on it real soon. Hopefully Monday or even tomorrow. I just don't think I can continue to work at a place that I care less and less about. I hardly even know who I am at that store anymore. I think my soul has literally been sucked out of me. It wasn't even corperate America that did it. Yep time to move on hopefully. I've heard of decent paying jobs around the city, now I just need to figure out how to get to them and how to get the jobs. Im hoping to get a job with my friends Pam or Edmund just so we can keep in touch and Im not new alone. That is one of the many reasons I have yet to look for a new wait job or resturant job. I don't want to go through being low man on the totem poll or even training again. I can't take that kind of pay cut right now. The other reason is the fact that this is the second fukin job that I've been so close to tending bar that I could taste it. We have only 2 “great” bartenders, 1 “good”, 2 “majorly sucky”. Im sure I could tips the scales or at least make the 2 greats some support. Im going to change something, as we speak Im paying bills and attempting to fill out the FAFSA as I try to create a mix cd. Well here's to hopin.