I stand at an edge.
I jump….eyes closed.
I fly towards whatever waits.
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I promised a post once before and failed to follow through, I’ve promised this one.  has promised a moratorium on posts until I I finally post.  I feel the love.  So here is a short post so I am not held responsible for my sumaets silence.  If she is silent now it’s her own doing, nothing to do with me thankfully.  You will get a more substantial post when I actually have time to think and not have to ration computer time.  That is all.

I suppose I should post at least one relevant post this year.
I’ve been busy, you’ve been busy, we’ve all been busy.

We have good news, we are now mobile.
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What the hell?!? “Dimebag” is dead! I need to get blitzed this weekend to honor him.
Deranged shooter kills 4
This is not cool, not cool at all.

I just wanted to say it out loud my family rocks! My lil family has hit hard times as we’ve tried to make ends meet with me being unemployed and such, and would probably have been homeless and hungry had it not been for my family. Most importantly my mother, she has been there to babysit for us and has made sure our daughter is well clothed. I really appreciate everything that everybody has done for us. I never really knew what having a guardian angel was like til our friend came into our lives. Thanks again to everybody for all your help through troubled times.

I have a job now!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1
Uh huh, Im a lil excited.  I am working for a small local ISP, doing web design and tech support.  I don’t know how much they are paying me, but as long as it’s $8 or ab ove Im ok.  It’s something I think I’ll like and enjoy.  Besides I’ll get to design some pages for my portfolio…wheeeee.  I shall report back when I have something other than happy noises to type.

Look at what was announced today:
US troops in Iraq get TODs lengthened

P.S. cute pics of my daughter in her halloween costume

So my unemployment has been denied!  Because of mis appropriation of company funds!  I forgot to ring up 2 sodas!  I am still a bit livid even though I found out on Sat.  I have to get my appeal done quick like and get it mailed in.  I have yet to find a new job, yet I have a lead, I just hope it goes through soon.  I need to get over to Buca di Bepo as well one of my friends said she would hire me there.  I figure if I can get a job there, then I can move to part time if my lead ever goes anywhere.  It sounds promising especially since I keep pulling stuff I know out of my hidden places and blow the dust off.  Who knew my experiments with Flash would be so marketable, even though I decided it wasn’t really right for my website.  I just feel lost and angry right now.  I think I should go ad take my daughter outside.  I hope they finally call with a job offer.

So I’ve been “let go” from my job. I figured it’d be coming, but not this soon. I think I am just more irrate at the timing rather than the actual firing. We were trying to get a car and get daycare taken care of for the lil one. I’ve already got a line on a new job and I hope that they call with the good news soon. I am calling around trying to get infor on businesses that ask for a faxed resume. You know I figure if I have the right company name on my cover letter that might make me a bit more hirable. Im also looking into teller positions, I think my wife would appreciate me having to dress up for work everyday. She likes it when I dress up. I am still looking for a car since that would aid in my job search and moving around the city to get to my future job. Read more

I’ve recently noticed, as many have noticed eons before me, that my journal is well kind of a dumbed down version of me. Not really a dumbed down version justa more simplistic version. My friends say they can see the internet candy kid in their minds. Then we talk and I tend to be large wordy in real life now, I often get asked what words mean or if they are even real words. I blame my families propensity for using larger words around the dinner table. Odd how I took for granted that we ate meals together almost all the time. In this day and age it makes me want to make sure that we eat together on a more regular basis. I think with H back in school it has gotten me a bit more motivated to get shite done. I want to get out table back into usable form and make more homemade meals. This week alone I’ve cooked twice as much as usual and Im not too torn up about it. The only thing that caught me off guard was the fact that I spent almost $40 to make fajitas last night. I did a pretty decent job for a fly by night operation. I blame the cheese for that price tag. So now I have to get my ass to the income assistance office so I can grab myself a list of the supported daycares and find one that can be bussed to easily for H and I. Read more

So being a parent is not conducive when one gets offered free Dave Mathew’s tickets only hours before the show. I even tried to find a babysitter, however, I figured my daughter would hate me for eternity if I happened to yet get another babysitter today. I woulda been fun because the group we would have gone with would have been muy fun. Almost as fun as running into my friend Chopper at the BNL/Alanis concert. I think he and my wife are now pseudo soul mates. They both try to get me onstage when it comes to kareoke and well both love BNL. Punks. Funny how I used to get made or even a bit down when I couldn’t make it to these things. But lately I almost prefer to spend time at home. Although time out with my wife on a more regular basis would be nice. She is only lucky that she is so incredibly cute and precious. Observe her cuteness in all its glory Read more

Im seething, just a huge cauldron of anger, or even just a bag o angst. I don’t know where it comes from, maybe it’s the whole not having an enjoyable job anymore. Or perhaps it’s the fact that I don’t have that “good job” to support my family with. I couldn’t find a babysitter today so no job hunting for Robbo, but I plan to get on it real soon. Hopefully Monday or even tomorrow. I just don’t think I can continue to work at a place that I care less and less about. I hardly even know who I am at that store anymore. I think my soul has literally been sucked out of me. It wasn’t even corperate America that did it. Yep time to move on hopefully. I’ve heard of decent paying jobs around the city, now I just need to figure out how to get to them and how to get the jobs. Im hoping to get a job with my friends Pam or Edmund just so we can keep in touch and Im not new alone. That is one of the many reasons I have yet to look for a new wait job or resturant job. I don’t want to go through being low man on the totem poll or even training again. I can’t take that kind of pay cut right now. The other reason is the fact that this is the second fukin job that I’ve been so close to tending bar that I could taste it. We have only 2 “great” bartenders, 1 “good”, 2 “majorly sucky”. Im sure I could tips the scales or at least make the 2 greats some support. Im going to change something, as we speak Im paying bills and attempting to fill out the FAFSA as I try to create a mix cd. Well here’s to hopin.

Nothing much goin on work sucks and well Im pretty much happy. I like that.
Check this out:
love predictions
Just check this shiz out, kinda creepy

So i have been officially married for 1 year.
This amazes me more than scares or intimidates me.
That year just flew by, and now we are on to the next.
What will it bring? It seems like it will be even harder than this last year, however it sounds more fun too. Read more

So, we get back into the swing of spring, not bad, just wish the wind would die down.
I’m in one of my cycles again where I hit that low point of grumpiness and sadness.
Good news is, it’ll stop soon and I’ll be back to happy go lucky me.
So this is the week we finally get our paperwork in for the child care assistance.
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