So being a parent is not conducive when one gets offered free Dave Mathew’s tickets only hours before the show. I even tried to find a babysitter, however, I figured my daughter would hate me for eternity if I happened to yet get another babysitter today. I woulda been fun because the group we would have gone with would have been muy fun. Almost as fun as running into my friend Chopper at the BNL/Alanis concert. I think he and my wife are now pseudo soul mates. They both try to get me onstage when it comes to kareoke and well both love BNL. Punks. Funny how I used to get made or even a bit down when I couldn’t make it to these things. But lately I almost prefer to spend time at home. Although time out with my wife on a more regular basis would be nice. She is only lucky that she is so incredibly cute and precious. Observe her cuteness in all its glory Read more

So i have been officially married for 1 year.
This amazes me more than scares or intimidates me.
That year just flew by, and now we are on to the next.
What will it bring? It seems like it will be even harder than this last year, however it sounds more fun too. Read more

Nothing seems normal anymore.
Just one big stress ball.
Lately I’ve been pining for the days when I had the freedom to go wherever whenever.
I feel trapped and caged.
I think this may attribute to my bastardization for the last few weeks.
I despise being a bastard, but it seems to come naturally to me. Read more

I have aged another year, and learned a few things. Read more

Life is one big hairy stress ball right now and Im just trying to stay afloat. im trying to be a good dad, but I often wonder if I really am.
Im short tempered lately
I feel off from the rest of the world.
I look at my daughter and think there is so much more i could be offering to her.
Money stops it all. (The fact that we have none)
Lately I’ve been feeling depressed and alone.
I feel like Im losing my sanity one piece at a time.(Slowly ever so slowly) Read more

Stupid Opera!
I was in the middle of a post.
It decided to close for some odd reason.
I need to start over again,

HAPPY BDAY RI!!!!!!!!!!!!! Read more

Or love you,
Maybe smack you,
If you’re into that kinky stuff. Read more

I can’t sleep because the babies may eat me…
Ugh, why do babies try so hard to get the most dangerous and stressful (for the parents at least) in their hands and their lil bellies. Read more

They were alllllll right!
Amounting to anything was never my forte. I’ve probably been the most talented quitter on the face of the planet. Then I think about all the people I’ve met in life. There are more with more talent and promise, just not as melodramatic as I. Read more

So I’ve come to find that my emotions are very cyclical. I’ve had various people throughout my life point it out but I idon’t think I’ve admitted it to myself until recently. I see myself looking up as I slide down towards that pit known as Male PMS. Where Im edgy and take offense to everything. Where was I when I when I was standing at the brink, why am I now just realizing Im slipping down? Read more

Serious that used to be common place at home, alright it still is, but I just wish for once my co-workers would grab my butt and not just spank it. And with that said I think we should move on. I would like to announce now that FFX is tha devil! Why, you may ask. Well I’ll tell ya. It has made me sleep deprived and made me spend about $35 on rental costs and cost for the game. Alright it does rock and I love it but the fact that I don’t sleep anymore and try to sneak any time in possible like a coke addict looks for any bathroom stall to get his fix in is just horrid. Read more

After a good nights sleep I feel more alive and more energized. I would like to give a huge ass thanks to my friends who replied to my last meloncholy post and gave me the buck up kiddo comments. It was muy appreciated. Right now Im just ready to get to class, get it over with and get home, maybe some chores but most of a DAY OFF!!!! Im so excited! Yeah I’ll update with more meaningful content as I get more time…honest!

Im tired, I feel exhausted, and I feel like I was blamed for not being able to sleep last night. I really wish I had more energy and was able to clean up and do stuff when I get home from work. But this past week has been hellish with school and work non-stop. I am counting the hours til tomorrow after my math class when I can finally take a nap or just stare at the sky as I veg on the grass. I wish I had money, I wish I had an education. I am pretty well versed and quite intelligent, or so I thought. Now Im just dense and getting more so everyday. Me thinks that the world isn’t really stupid, maybe I am an elitest like my fiancee said before. I dunno, I think Im just losing faith in my ablity to provide for my family and give my kidd a good life. Im feelin drained and hopeless, will I actually be able to do it?

Alright so today I kinda start to chill and have a good day. Well I take mah gurlie to her meet point for her camping trip and then I go to the bank to cash my checks. Finally, I wanted to her bday present she’s been so patiently waiting for. Well I go to get it and low and behold there is an Ultimate Box Set for Escaflowne! Whoot whoot! It cost a pretty penny, but when all is said and done it kinda makes the wait worth it, ja? I got nothing done tonight except take and hour nap and pound the daylights outta AIs in DOA2: Hardcore. So now I have to try and finish my homework for Acct, I detest that class and my view on homework for it isn’t helping…I best check the drop dates and such and see if I can finish tonight.

I made it home with lil difficulty, I started to worry when I looked out my classroom windows and I saw the clouds gathering.

Oh yeah all I can say about missing 2 days of class *whew* The first day I missed I had the homework for, and then he gave another assignment. I’d normally be screwed cuz he doesn’t accept late work, but…Monday was a review day, or at least a catch up day for everybody so I had til today for that homework assignment which I finished right before class thanx to . We got our grade updates today and I had like all kinds of 0′s…I tried to give him my user name and web address for school, before but he kept brushing me off. So today I get it and 0′s almost all the way across. I just stared at him and thought WTF! I looked at him and I said, “I had this stuff done before you even assigned it!” He answered with, “Well you never told me your username and I where to find your webpages…” I just blinked numerous times as I sputtered, “You have my freakin email I sent as the first assignment, thats my username and web address, you of all people should know that.” I mean not to knoc Read more